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Quiz Time!!


You are a tortoiseshell or calico cat. Man, are you
nuts or what? You should try taking some
tranquilizers. Calm down, you hyper thing!
You've got a great personality though. You're
so lively and you are known for getting into
mischief.


What color of cat are you?
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You are an Evil Dead Zombie. The spirits of the
dead took over your body in a lonely cabin, and
now it's your job to kick some Ash ass. Sadly,
while you'll succeed in beating the bejeezus
out of Ash repeatedly, he will ultimately wipe
you from existence. You can only be killed by
bodily dismemberment.


What kind of Zombie are you?
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Non curo. Si metrum non habet, non est poema.
"I don't care. If it doesn't rhyme, it isn't
a poem."
You are a type A personality. You like bright
things, you don't call in sick to work, and you
have devastating opinions about art.


Which Weird Latin Phrase Are You?
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To end this reading of the Gospel According to Zekius, I leave you with this:
"That's Kothag." Marc, Forever Evil

I was doing better for awhile. I was doing okay. Life had actually held meaning and purpose. But now I am sliding down that slippery slope once again. It all started when I got sick tonight. That bummed me out a little bit. Then my dad came home and brought me my mail. The only piece was a letter from the Charles Town Race Way. I was not selected for the position. I didn't even really want to work there. But I didn't want to be rejected. I guess my state of mind wasn't as strong as I thought it was. I am thankful I have this writing outlet. It relieves some of the whatever it is was affecting me. Just getting my feelings out there in some kind of medium seems to help. Another thing that is bothering me is the lack of stars. Night time has almost become sacred to me. Just me and the stars. When no stars appear, I feel real bad. It had to happen tonight. Damn. Sometimes I feel so cold, worthless, and lonely. This is one of those times. I really just want to go away, but I don't know where.

To end this reading of the Gospel According to Zekius, I leave you with this:
"But it's always raining in my head, forget all the things I should have said." Epiphany, Staind

Yeah, I know. There hasn't been an update here in awhile. Not much has been going on. I subbed once that was really it. Oh, I went to my friend Bill's store grand opening. That is about it. I think I feel a little better. But I don't know.

I don't feel like putting a quote up today.

The days just keep getting worse and worse. Today was pretty bad. I still feel completely worthless. I feel like I am letting everyone who ever cared about me down. Then this evening my mother received a call. Her brother Ronnie had a heart attack and was in the hospital. I went to run some errands for my parents and was crying in the car. I was wondering why I can't be a better son, why I can't be a better person. I feel I am not fulfilling anything. When I got home, my mom was in tears. Ronnie Hoopengardner passed away today. I can't deal with this shit. I am not in a place where I can do anything for myself let alone for other people. I can't handle anymore. All this shit just keeps piling up and I am so tired of trying to shovel myself out. I just want to curl into a ball out in the snowy slush and let myself freeze to death. I don't think I can even deal with one more crappy thing. I came even closer to burning myself tonight. I held the cigarette maybe half an inch from my skin. I could feel the warmth. It seems to be the most warmth I have in along time. But I wanted to do more. I wanted to drive my car into a telephone pole. But then I think what that would do to my parents and my friends. The rope holding me back is fraying. It would take only a tiny, little snip and that is it. I think I am just going to sit here and wait for that snip.

To end this reading of the Gospel According to Zekius, I leave you with this:
"I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real." Hurt

So I had a really bad day today. It all started when I woke and remembered the dream I had. It was about my grandmother. She was dead in the dream but still speaking to me and my mother. The setting was in her old garden. There was some kind of weird tent shrine in the garden near her compost pile. Within the tent lay my grandmother's body. Brown dust was blowing all over the place. I can't remember what she was telling us. But upon further reflection, I felt more and more that the way I am living my life was unacceptable to her. This feeling just got more and more overwhelming throughout the day. Everything that I did or found out today added to the feeling that I was a burden to all around me. I came really close to burning myself again. Probably the closest I have been since I first did it. I feel a little better now, but a deep feeling of sadness and worthlessness is still with me. In my boredom, and in an effort to take my mind off my woes, I filled out a survey that I stole from my friend Jessa. Here you go:

1) Using band names, spell out your name

Z.Z. Top
Electric Light Orchestra
Kajagoogoo
Emerson, Lake and Palmer

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? no
3) What song makes you cry? "The Lady of Shalott" Lorenna McKennit
4) What song makes you happy? "Pepper" Butthole Surfers
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? MC Frontalot

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: around six foot
HAIR COLOR: black W/ some gray
SKIN COLOR: white
EYE COLOR: brown
PIERCINGS: One in my left ear
TATTOOS: none

r i g h t - n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: none, I am wearing blue shorts
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: "Nerdcore Hiphop" MC Frontalot
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: cigarettes
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: clear and cold and totally beautiful
HOW ARE YOU? i've been better

d o - y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: No
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: too many to count
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: most of the time

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Seinfeld, Law and Order, The Daily Show
CONDITIONER: two in one
MAGAZINE: Realms of Fantasy
SODA: Coke/Pepsi
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: whatever
RAPPER: MC Frontalot

h a v e - y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: one too many times
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yes
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yes
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yes
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: no
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yes

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: not that I know of
GIRLFRIEND: not right now
CHILDREN: are only meant for other people
BEEN IN LOVE?: i think so
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: everytime
BEEN HURT?: everytime
YOUR GREATEST REGRET? everytime
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR 3 DAYS: not that i know of

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: mp3 mix cd
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: grey
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: getting out of the house
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: clear nights and cigarettes
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: Norah Jones new one
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: the musketeers, Tony, Jenn, Aud, Beth, Jaime, and how could i ever have forgotten Krista and Megan

w h e n / w h a t - w a s - t h e - l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: today
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: i have no idea
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Blind date
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Big Fish

y o u r - t h o u g h t s - o n
ABORTION: it makes me sad, but it is not my choice
TEENAGE SMOKING: start 'em early
SPICE GIRLS: made a bad movie

To end this reading of the Gospel According to Zekius, I leave you with this:
"I love God. He's so deliciously evil." Stewie Griffin, Family Guy

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Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from
the world. Something has really hurt you,
which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you
feel safe and that is why you stay there.

What kind of dark person are you?
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I am tired, but I can't sleep. Lot of stuff running through my mind. My favorite bar, Gandalf's in Frostburg, burnt down Sunday morning. Apparently the fire started in or near the furnance. Eight families lost their homes as the apartments above were also consumed in flame. No one was hurt, Thank the Maker. But the first bar I drank in legally is gone. Granted, Gandalf's did move, so it wasn't the same building. But it was the same bar. Same atmosphere and everything. I also recieved an e-mail today informing me that one of my favorite bands, The Country Devils, will be performing their last show this Friday somewhere in Glen Burnie. I don't think I am going to go, as seeing them for me is a Gandalf's experience. But how much change and loss can one take in so short a time? Why does everything like this happen when I am already so down? I feel like I am losing touch with everything in my life that makes me who I am. I went up to Frostburg this past weekend. I needed to get out of the house for a few days. Hung out with a bunch of my friends that are still up there. Some that I wanted to see I did not get to see. Saturday was Sasha's 21st birthday. For those who don't know, Sasha is Tony's fiance. We all went to Gandalf's to celebrate along with Bill and Elena (sp?). It was a good time. But I was forced to face once again that I can't drink like I used to. I got a good buzz going, but that was it. I thought I needed to get completely and totally wasted. I felt that I didn't want to remember anything. But I couldn't get to that point. My body wouldn't let me. Sometimes I wonder when I got so old. When did such things lose their luster? When did the Jewels of College Life cease to sparkle? When did my house become a prison? I don't even have anyone to love like King Osric. Damn. Life sucks a whole bunch right now. Jenn got me a book to read about Mood Therapy. I want to read it, but I must finish with the History of the Lord of the Rings first. And even then I don't know. I don't think I want to admit that I need help. Maybe it is just that stubborn streak in my that doesn't want help from anything or anybody. It just wants me to solve this thing myself. I don't know. I feel like I have no identity right now. Just a floating, formless lump of protoplasm. Eh. I don't know. I really don't.

To end this reading of the Gospel According to Zekius, I leave you with this:
"Zeke is a sexual machine waiting to explode."
Tony at Gandalf's before it burnt down